June 26, 2008

6/26/08

I am not happy about the letter I am writing. I left Fairbanks on Monday night so that I could make a doc appt tues am. when I got to my appointment I showed my dr the ever worsening rash that I have over my mastectomy scar (they MRIed the rash about two months ago and it showed no signs of cancer)he immediately ordered another chest MRI followed by a biopsy of the skin and the swollen lymph nodes that have become apparent in the last couple of weeks (I of course was trying to deny they were there). Of course the MRI Showed us our worst fears...the cancer is back with a vengeance. It is now on my chest wall, it has invaded my skin (which by the way none of the 3 Docs I saw that day have ever seen anything like it before) and the scariest part is it’s in more lymph nodes. I will have a PET scan on Fri to determine whether or not it has spread to any other organs, if that’s the case I’m a stage 4 for sure, if not they are not quite sure what to stage me at, but they were hinting that it probably would be bad.

On a lighter note, the applause letter that I submitted to the newspaper was in the Tuesday edition...check it out and tell me what you think...Also, I will probably be going to AK on the occasional weekend, if this is serious I want to spend as much time there as possible. And for those of you who are wondering, I’m not going to do radiation up there, I don’t take care of myself as well as I should while I’m there, there are too many distractions, I can really focus on myself while I’m in Seattle. One last thing, I start Radiation on Monday and I will also be doing Chemo at the same time, so I will be starting that sometime next week as well....keep me in your prayers...erica

1 comment:

Darcy said...

Erica,

Your applause in the paper is wonderful! It is very well written, you are so sweet! I'm am heartbroken to hear the news - my heart goes out to you Erica. But you will get through this, it just means treatment is going to last longer than we had hoped. Remember that you have SO many people that love you and want to help any way we can. Call me whenever you need to talk. Hopefully I will see you in Seattle in a couple weeks!

Love you and thinking about you everyday,
Darcy